Okay, so I've been wanting to start a Bible study. This year has been kinda crazy so far though, due to all my travelling. As such, I've not been able to devote a whole lot of time talking to God and other people about it, or working towards that goal. But recently, I tried talking to my parents about it. I mostly just came away feeling frustrated. I was afraid they might try to take over and I wanted it to be my Bible study and I didn't want any help, etc. (Which, for the record, is all completely ridiculous.)
Over the course of events and through talking to a close friend, I suddenly realized what should have been blatantly obvious to me already - whenever I thought about the Bible study, whenever I tried to talk to someone about it, somehow the focus had shifted from God to me. I wasn't trying to start this study group for God. I was trying to start it to prove to myself, to my family, to my friends, that I could do this great thing without anyone's help. Which of course, entirely defeats the whole purpose of a Bible study.
Today, as I was reading my Bible, God made another point. I'm doing an Exodus/life of Moses study with this blog called She Reads Truth. Today's study was titled, "Moses and Jethro". I read the scripture and started reading the blog post, and was almost immediately turned off. "Not another young mom post," I groaned inwardly. But as I continued reading, it wasn't just about the experience of a young mom. It was about the simple fact that we can't do this life thing alone.
I may want to believe that that I can do something great in my own strength, but the fact is, I'm going to need my own Jethro. Someone who can help me as I try to do something new, who will keep me on track and point out when something I'm doing is about to crash and burn. My Jethro may be my mom, maybe a friend, or maybe even someone I don't know yet. I'm confident God will point out the who in time. He's just preparing me to accept the Jethro He gives me.
I just had to smile wryly when I read that post this morning. God told me gently, once more, "You can't do it alone." But that's okay, because I was never intended to do it alone.
Dude, I sure love God a lot.
Hello Michelle,
ReplyDeleteI just got done reading through your blog. There's a lot of good things to glean from something like this. From your take on the Myers-Briggs Personality Test to simply talking about little things that you have noticed at seemingly random moments throughout your life, it's been enjoyable to read your thoughts as you have put them on paper (or, e-paper, as it were? I don't know).
I realize that my comment is on things that you have reflected on nearly four years ago. That being said, I'm somewhat surprised that you didn't continue on with your blog; as someone who has also written a blog, I know that it can be difficult to keep up on posting, particularly as life events come up or it doesn't seem like anything is coming to mind to write about. But I understand if God has taken you on to bigger and better things.
As a fellow homeschooler and Christian, I applaud you on writing a blog of your own as well as dedicating it solely to the Lord. Again, it was a pleasure to read, and I hope that you might do more of it (whether it be another blog or something else entirely) in the future.
By the way, it's great to see another fellow Ranger's Apprentice reader! Which book is your favorite to read in the series (if you say all of them, I won't hold it against you; they're all fantastic!)?
Sorry, I forgot to introduce myself.
DeleteMy name is Jonathan. Good to meet you!